昨天晚上十一点半才睡觉，三点肚子疼，起来上厕所，继续睡觉，做梦……
梦见与母亲在日本坐列车然后换汽车，晚间经过箱根，但撞车不省人事。两人都有幸生还，但同车上名为余升的一人不幸逝世。
又穿越时光到两天前，在一间废弃的白色走廊里，转弯后找到一个办公室，四个角上都是台子，电脑还都开着。侵入研究者的账号打开大门（成功逃离？）同时全家人（小姨和爷爷奶奶）找到了办公室的厨房喝咖啡。
和全家人一起乘车前往箱根。时间是下午三点，但天仍是灰的。行李厢堆积高度超过了高度限制。试图打电话给余升警告他不可以去箱根，但是电话不通——已经太晚了。
箱根在下雪，我在一面墙旁边不知道怎么办。看到墙上写的字，忽然激发了我的时光穿越能力，再回到过去。
到达某个酒店的走廊中，正好遇到余升，但是并不是之前所见到的成年人，而是一个少年。母借口问厕所在哪里，但我却直接的说我有事找他。于是余升把我们带到后门，并告诉我们他现在已经成为了一名反社会主义者。
The second “law” of thermodynamics says that in a closed environment, some things can only happen in one direction. They are not reversible.
Calling it a law does not make it absolute; if we see a system that doesn’t work that way – like a cup of water spontaneously becoming ice and warm water – the “law” will be quickly replaced by something that better describes nature. But we have observed many galaxies, and they all seem to follow this rule.
To make things like life happen, there must be energy that we can use. Generally, energy can only transform from one type to another. So barring nuclear fusion, there is always the same amount of energy in a closed system. But because of the second law, a closed system will eventually have no more energy that can be used to do work. Which is the time to buy more gas 🙂
So it’s great that the Earth has the Sun to provide usable energy, which drives all the life on Earth, including us.
And if the sun will run out of fuel, hopefully by that time (billions of years) we will have migrated to somewhere else.
And if the universe runs out of fuel?
Maybe it will collapse and renew again. Maybe it will fade into coldness. Maybe it will rip itself apart.
Maybe there are more universes outside what we can see.
We currently don’t know enough about our universe to say at this point…
I talked to a religious friend about my recent situations, and mentioned that I’ve been trying to read the bible. She asked me what I, as someone who was raised in a non-religious culture, have as my first impression of the bible. (I’ve only read the first few books and Matthew so far.)
My answer was that it was dense. There are so many things in it. And kind of dry too. Things not that interesting to modern societies.
Now that I come back to think again…
Some other things.
Today I feel kind of cold and shivering, even though I’ve been wearing 2 layers all day…
So for the past three months, I’ve been pondering (read: completely scared) about dying. It’s not something we can postpone with the technology we currently have, and it will not be something we can ever entirely avoid.
It’s all neat and poetic to talk about living forever, but forever is a long time. Writing was only invented 6000 years ago. Dinosaurs roam the earth 30 million years ago. The age of the observable universe is only about 15 trillion years.
Moreover, in an eternity, eventually all the possible tweets will have been written, all the possible TV episodes will have been produced. This isn’t necessarily to say all the books will be written, since there isn’t a size limitation, but every single tweet… is a gigantic number. And it would be quite boring, if nothing is new anymore.
It makes me almost want eternal oblivion.
上次 FE 展后回顾所列的愿望：
Wishlist from Further Equinox’s review:
Some things to improve next con: take more photos, post more on Twitter, practice fursuit movements before con, mingle with non-fursuiters more, drink more water, and DON’T STAY IN FURSUIT for all of the dance competition.
下次去兽展，希望能: 拍更多的照片、发更多的推、走之前练习兽装动作、和非兽装穿着者互动更多、喝更多的水、还有不要整个舞蹈比赛都穿着兽装。
I’m still disappointed that at fur cons, people stay up late and sleep in, so there aren’t much stuff happening in the mornings.
对于兽展大家都晚起晚睡这一点，我还是很失望。这样早晨起来就几乎没有什么事情可以做。
This year What The Fur has moved to Delta Centre-ville. The bad is it’s a large, expensive hotel, so there are many other guests staying. Also, the convention floor is underground and completely lacking in natural light, so photography is hard. The good is that the convention floor is spacious, and has a hub-and-spoke arrangement, so it’s easy to find and mingle with people. Also, there are many other guests staying, including families, tourists, and engineering students here for the annual concrete canoe competition (seriously)!
今年What The Fur 移动到了Delta Centre-ville. 不好的地方是这是个大型酒店，价格不菲，其他宾客也很多。另外，整个会议中心在地下二层，完全没有自然光，所以照相难。好处是会议中心面积很大，并且呈放射性排列，所以很容易和大家打成一片。另外，其他宾客也很多，包括家庭、游客、以及来这里参加每年的混凝土划艇比赛的工程系学生们 (真的) !
（How spacious is the convention floor? Every year in January, the very same hotel plays host to CUSEC, the Canadian University Software Engineering Conference. This year, 12 universities in Canada have have sent delegations, each having about a bus full of attendees. And 18 organizations set up tables at the career fair after lunches.
会议中心有多大？每年一月，CUSEC ——加拿大大学软件工程会议——在该酒店举办。今年 12 个大学派了代表团来，每个至少坐满了一车。午饭后的招聘会，有18个组织设展位。
I went to CUSEC this year. It’s actually kind of weird to come to the same convention space for a completely different convention.
我今年也参加了CUSEC. 在同一个会场参加完全不同的展会感觉好奇怪。）
